A Guru life!

Writing my blog after a long long time! Sorry for this ;) I will do my best to be regular from now onwards!

I wonder now, that a life with a Guru is so much different than a normal life.. where you have everything, family, friends, job/college, luxuries, boyfriend/girlfriend- everything to make  you happy, but there is a missing link somewhere..that sometimes you think that may be I am here for a different reason, may be a cause. Definitely my life has a purpose, what is it? Everything is good, but still there is something that I cannot see..something somewhere is hidden, which may be I need to find out.  That the happiness or sadness are just a part of life, there has to be something beyond this..what is it really?? I am happy with everything I have, but still some higher happiness is missing.. some fill in the blank.. May be I need to find something or someone to guide me in this direction? My dear, if such thoughts come to your mind sometimes, or every now and then, then many congratulations to you, that you are progressing subtly on a spiritual path. And that someone who can guide you on this path is no one other than your Guru!

Since childhood, I used to think that my existence has a reason, my friends used to chill out very often, but I used to get bored with them, I was not much interested in all time parties, or wasteful discussions, or boring friend gossips about here & there- someone or the other. I joined such gossips manytimes, but always felt that why am I here? I believed that whatever I shall do, shall be for a reason, a higher purpose. People used to term me as ‘highly ambitious’ or arrogant etc. But now when I have found my goal, I found my right place, I know why I used to get such thoughts. Probably, I was destined to be here, on this path, with my Guru!

People of my age, my old friends get scared of me, or mock or feel  a distance from me often that I will become a sadhu or I do this Guru-Guru business all the time, I have been hypnotized :P or  I don’t act my age!! :D I smile at them and somewhat agree with them that if I was at their position, probably I would have thought this way too! But you know what is my Guru for me ? I would like you to know! When I am in trouble, and don’t know what to do next & I don’t want to do anything wrong.. I get guidance from my Guru. My Guru is my smile, a place I can go and rest anytime, a shelter where I am a child back again, playful and innocent. Now I hardly face situations where I create trouble for myself and for my near & dear ones. I am no more so much selfish, I am much happier. My Guru is someone I can depend upon for any kind of help.. He is that strength which never lets me down. I realized that this lifetime of 60-70-80 years is a very small time of which already 25 years are gone..and each minute, our each act holds an importance. To be happy, live a life devoid of guilt or regrets , like a child- only a Guru can teach. He is the one who will show you who you are, and why are you here on this planet at this time! Yes, He is the love of my life. He is the one, who can accept any mistake I do, but still show me the right path. Yes, this life is entirely different from a normal life, where each moment you feel you are so lucky, everyone seems beautiful, everyday is a new day, and each day you rise in love!

Jai Gurudev!